Shake what off?  Shake all my problems and troubles off!!

Tonight was a “running” night. Took bus back home with Shawn after cg. The moment my legs were lifted up from the bus steps, I started to run to the control station. Then, took mrt back home. The moment I reached my mrt station, I started to run.. run and run..I ran not because I want to train up my stamina or the upcoming marathon, but was because my mum called and asked me to fly home at the fastest speed. It was like 11pm. My mum’s actions can be explained that she cares for me and also thanks to all those people loitering at my house’s void deck, drinking, gathering. Arghx!

Actually, it’s not the first time I’m running at night. Different shoes have been in this race with me. Slippers, flats, heels, gladiator. Although I’m running because I have to fly back home asap, when I come to think, I actually enjoyed the night running that I had. Running is always an outlet for me to shake off my problems and troubles. I always feel happier, relax after running, the feeling of the cool breeze brush your hair. But after running, I think my problems didnt solve at all.. Running can only help to shake away my problems (temporary). In the end, problems still there. I’m still struggling with what I’m struggling now.

This morning, I was listening to 987 and I heard this inspiring note “Showing emotions does not make you weak. Being honest to your feelings is showing that you are strong“. My first reaction was “wow..powerful”. But i think it really makes sense. The more I want to hide; the more I want to run away, The more evident to show that I’m incapable in solving the problem.

It was my more than 5 times that I broke down because of the same old matter. Move on, girl. Looking back at the private entries that I’ve blogged, I already harped on this issue for more than 6 months. 6 months of mourning should be enough bah? I just want to surrender this, like releasing a balloon from my hand.

I need healing, then strengthening..

God, you’ve heard my cry, and I’m reaching out to you..

Nice music on my blog??  Yeah man, you got a great taste!

It is Jay Chou’s latest song and dueting with Cindy Yuan. The song is called “画沙”. Jay duet with her in her new title track ‘Sand Painting’ which Cindy has composed and the lyrics are written by Vincent Fang. This is the first time that Jay Chou has ever sung a song that is not composed by himself!

作曲:袁咏琳
作词:方文山
主唱:袁咏琳, 周杰伦

午后的风摇晃枝桠 抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话 在对你牵挂
玩风琴就是爱瞎闹 堆积着无暇
我跟着站在碧沙岸 让你放不下

这风景如画 (让晚风恍惚幻化)
院子里画沙 (摇晃着画着情花)
等最美的晚霞 等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远 我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你 而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来 全部(不?)会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

挑上脸 挑上花 有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
傻傻的 还想着你滴滴答答
擦美丽的指甲 喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

爱过你的风沙 你的风沙 我一样值得你爱
管他风怎么刮 管雨又怎么下
回头过去原来 (别说傻)
回头不说一次 (值得吧)
我爱上这泪光 问你会不会爱我

这种景如画 (让晚风恍惚幻化)
院子里画沙 (摇晃着画着情花)
等我们的童话 等誓言落下

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远 我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你 而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来 全部(不?)会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀

用手中的流沙画一个你呀
才说过的永远 我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你 而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来 全部(不?)会重画
许过的承诺我脚步会在期待
因为我爱你呀 (因为我爱你呀)

Friday [23 Oct 2009] after accounting lesson, I went ION to meet my shepherd for lunch and shepherding. In the end, we settled our lunch at Watami – Japanese Casual Dining. Watami at ION Orchard was the first branch in Singapore and it has its second at The Central.

Watami Singapore follows Watami group slogan of receiving “the most number of thank yous” in the world. Watami is the original creator of the “Ishokuya” dining concept in Japan. Ishokuya refers to the concept of a relaxing dining experience. Like The Body Shop, Watami is also committed in corporate social responsibility initiatives.

Every day, Watami promise you with different lunch set meal which comes with your main dish, your choice of free drink and miso soup. The set lunches for different days are Kimchi Nabe Teishoku set, Ebi Katsu Tamago Toji Teishoku set, Honkaku Ramen and Small Bibimbap set, Small Yakitori Don and Udon set, Chicken Miso Katsu Don set.

Chicken Miso Katsu Don
S$9.80
Chicken Katsu with Miso sauce, Rice bowl set
Ratings: (out of 5 stars)

Kaisen Doria
S$9.80
Seafood Rice Gratin set
Ratings: (out of 5 stars)

Shared with my shepherd certain issues of my life that I’m facing. After our late lunch, we window shopp-ED at Ion. Went Sephora as my shepherd was looking for makeup remover. Then took a look at the fragrances section. So, let me update my favorite perfume list:

Chloé: Now it comes with this new fragrance INTENSE. The bottle of the perfume is embellished with a grey-coloured ribbon. I tested this new fragrance but I still prefer the previous edition. INTENSE is too strong for me.

Nina Ricci: I like Pretty Ricci. The perfume bottle is an apple-shaped. It comes with two colors. One is red, one is green apple. The green apple is the limited edition. But i still prefer the red one.

Ralph Lauren:

Escada: An alternative of Ralph Lauren. Rockin Rio is my favorite. This fruity, floral, citrus infusion blends tropical flowers and juicy fruits.

..ya, i know this is the song title for the first song playing at my blog.. but it’s completely different from the mood that I have for the past few days. “Down” is a word I would use to describe my feeling up till the moment I’ve to lead worship.

Yup, today I had caregroup and leading in worship. My third worship leading.

A few days ago, someone dropped me this question asking me if I’m able to forgive what Christopher Lee did from the hit-and-run accident. Without hesitation, I replied “YA! Why not? All of us made mistakes. I also make mistakes.” I’m able to forgive Christopher Lee as God forgives us sinners. This person continue to ask me “So, are you able to forgive XYZ?” I was stunned. I couldnt give this person a direct answer of yes or no. But I know deep down in my heart, I really cant forgive XYZ for the hurt he caused.

Although the incident happened long long time ago, I couldnt forgive what he has done. Or I should say that I tried to run away from it. I will just wait for the thing to come back again and then let it break me again and again. How many times have I broken down in tears because of him?

My unit is embarking on prayer and fasting for 10 days. I’m doing them faithfully and really spent quite some time to chew on the passage. (HAHA…cause for the last PNF, I was reluctant and rebellious to do) Every day, I got to learn a lot of things.

For today’s, it is on Holy Different <Isaiah 6:1-8>.  and today for worship, I had to sing “Above All”. When I was preparing for worship the previous night, I was really challenged. God is above all, God is above all my troubles, problems. Why must I fret? (but yet, I couldnt surrender the bitterness I have on this person). God is merciful and forgiving that He can forgive all sinners. Why couldnt I have a heart, a forgiving heart like God’s to forgive him?

Negativity was overwhelmed that I broke down in the train when I was travelling down to Bras Basah. Spent some quiet time with God and tried to prepare my worship. Gosh, I wasnt on form please.. This was my 2nd time not on form when I have to lead praise/worship. Haha..the first time was the first time that I had to lead praise.

Really thank God for placing friends around me like Jesline and Junyao. Felt much better after talking to them.(P.S.: Shepherd, you are also one of them.. haha.. haven tell you what happened )

Alright, back to my worship experience for today. I think it was great! I went script-less and let the Spirit leads. And it’s the best worship experience i would say. Not only I went script-less and let the Spirit to lead me, I also feel less stressed. Cause for the past 2 times, I’m too self-conscious that I couldnt really enter worship. But today, I succeeded

Current Mood: Slowly adjusting back from to

On Monday (19 Oct), it was ILOVEMYMUMMY Day. haha..I think I’m just crazy to think such name for this day. It was a day for my mum to treat her good food, good desserts and good facial.

After my class, I met my mum at Bugis and we had lunch at Food Junction. Both of us shared a plate of Indonesian Grilled Chicken Set, and had Tako Pachi. Then, I took her to Ah Chew for dessert since we’re early for facial.

I recommended my mum to have Mango Sago with Pomelo. I ordered Vanilla icecream but it was unavailable. The ice creams available were strawberry, yam, chocolate and cookies and cream. So I ordered the yam one. Luckily it turn out great.

Then, we also ordered Black Sesame. It costs $2.

Then, we went to the facial parlor. As I’m not doing facial, I stayed around in the facial parlor. Initially I wanted to go shopping but 1.5 hours cant really shop much. Then I stayed there to study my psychology. The staff there was sweet. Knowing that I’m waiting for my mum, she ushered me into this room for me to study.

So after facial, went retail therapy with my mum. I “abandoned” her at bugis village and she made her way to OG while I shopped in Bugis Village. Bought my OPI nail polishes. One pink and one orange. They were on sale so I got them.

Ya, met back my mum at OG. Shopped for a while and we went home.

Home Sweet Home..