Why cant we simplified the things around us? What could happen if initially I dont even account for it? Will things be easier? I’m glad that my relationship with er ge is improving, and I consulted him. He thought that I should do it but I find it hard. :’(

Yesterday night didnt have a good night. I tossed and turned since 12am to 2am. Super serious sore throat and blocked nose. I wasnt like that in the evening. at 5am, I woke up again.. Ate cereals and do my QT. arghx.. now my voice is sexy..

You can find Muscle Guys in the gym. And you can find Mussel Guys @ Orchard Central! On friday 28 August, met up with Stephanie for dinner and karaoke. We walked around Orchard Central and decided to settle our dinner at the Mussel Guys Cafe.

Chef’s special chicken wings (S$8.90)
Served with home made chilli sauce. There are 6 of them. The chicken is not as spicy as I think.
Ratings: (out of 5 stars)

Since the specialty is Mussels, we decided to order the mussels to try. 350gm of Baked Half Mussels and 350gm of Belgium Mussels. 350gm of Mussels are around 11-13 pieces of Mussels. Of all that I tried, I still prefer the baked half mussels. Yummilicious!

Baked Half Mussels(S$17.90 per 350gm) Half shell moules with cheesy mornay. This is super nice and I think you can order the 500gm one. super nice!! It’s nicer than Belgium Premium Mussels. The mussels coated with cheese on the outside and juicy and fresh from the inside. Extremely irresistible!!
Ratings: (out of 5 stars)

Belgium Mussels(S$19.90 per 350gm) Premium black-blue mussels commonly known as the Belgium mussels, lightly sauteed with rich butter and aromatic white wine, the best way to enjoy the natural sweetness. I find that it’s very tasteless. If you are eating this, maybe you should get some chilli sauce or something.
Ratings: (out of 5 stars)

Ever since my last day at work, I tried very hard to complete the outstanding blog entries that were due long ago. I managed to blog a lot of food entries, but mentioned little about my week, my feelings etc. And I’m supposed to set aside some time for reflection of GC and Life of Christ but ARGHX.. BUSY BUSY BUSY EVERYDAY!! So, before the new week starts again, let me recall my weeks starting from 18 August 2009. Hopefully my normal-paced life will be back on track soon.

18 August 2009 (Tuesday). Unofficial cg at Ion Orchard Swensens Icecream buffet. Though it’s buffet, I didnt eat much. Everything is too sweet for me. A few scoops of ice cream, waffles, chocolate fondue were enough for the small eater me. Then, we had a session of thanksgiving, and wrote encouragement words for our fellow cg mates. Guess what is the common word appearing in my card? It’s the word “EMOTIONS or EMOTIONAL”. Oh gosh.. I was thinking in my mind “got that serious ar? why so many people highlight this to me?” I also know that this is an area that I need to have breakthrough and overcome it. Like one of the lessons I learnt, Do not let your feelings guide your decisions.  A lot of times, I react accordingly to how I felt at the point of time. Then worse thing is I continued to dwell in the emo-ness. But now, as of 29 August, 11:11PM, I’m not emo-ING okay? Woohoo~~

19 August 2009 (Wednesday). After work, rushed down to Nexus for GC. I was totally refreshed by the sermon teaching. After the conference, I was sharing with Shawn the points that spoke to me in the train. It’s about point 2 and 4. You can see my reflections here.

22 August 2009 (Saturday). Two birthday parties in a day. One is Giselle’s then Sher’s.

23 August 2009 (Sunday). Life of Christ workshop, Shepherding + scouting for my spare shoe and I got a Ripples flip flops. Made chocolate fondant.

24 August 2009 (Monday). Last day of work! Rushed to Life of Christ workshop without having dinner. Feeling super bad in the stomach but just didnt tell anyone and tried to endure as long as I can. Then, a piece of egg prata sat in front of me. (thanks! u know who u r) Sick, but still walked fast to catch the last train. But sadly, no more train service to Marina Bay. Sianz to the max. then, flagged for the cab. I felt that the taxi driver purposely drove the longer distance route to my house. The route he was taking isnt the “common route” my parents or brothers used. I panicked please.. as I didnt know where the taxi driver is bringing me. And he was singing songs lar.. What’s more freaky than this? Total taxi fare was $24.90. I didnt have enough cash with me and the taxi driver cant accept NETS. more peng right? but luckily I have $ in my EZ Link.

25 August 2009 (Tuesday). My first day of unemployment. Unknowingly, I slept until 1130am. Received phone call from my supervisor to ask me if I’m keen to come back to the company again to work at other department. For the rest of the day, I started to clear those outstanding entries. around 5pm, Collin jio me out to chill as he’s around my house. In the end, we were at coffeeshop drinking teh. Haha.. after that, hurriedly rushed to Life of Christ. Missed dinner again =x

26 August 2009 (Wednesday). Went to a place with my mum. Though I was scared, I tried to look calm in front of my mum. But..up till now, I’m really very scared.. I told my mum I will be alright, and I’m not worry of what is going to happen(but actually I am). The scene keeps running in my head, but I know that I need to cool down as it’s the best thing I can do for myself. JIA U.. I can do it!

27 August 2009 (Thursday). Final Destination 3D with Cai Xuan, KaYan, LiPing, Junyao, Elaine, Benson. Body shop sale @ PS and I bought two passionfruit body butter. nice nice!! 2 for $10.

28 August 2009 (Friday). Shepherding and Kezia’s Convocation. Dinner @ Orchard Central with Stephanie. Ate 10++ mussels. Cam-whore-ED Karaoke-ED till 1115pm and just on time to catch the last train to marina bay and back home. saw this on my table:

29 August 2009 (Saturday). Volunteer work outside Ngee Ann City, at the Atrium. Airbrush tattoo. Balloon twisting. Service. Dinner with cg at meridian. Home sweet Home.

J’s party like a popstar: Looking at the guest list, there are a lot of friends that I’ve not been meeting them up. This party will allow me to meet them, find out how they’ve been. Another purpose of the party is for just of the invitees. They have some misunderstandings and I hope that they can make use of the party to solve it. Why must friends act differently now? Aint they suppose to be good friends, best buddies in the past? Yesterday I managed to talk to xxxx. I dont want to force him but I really hope that he can overcome his own barrier and come for the party. He’s asking to give me a treat another day but not coming for it. Frankly speaking, I’m really very sad and really wonder what can I do, what else can I do. What I want is not what lunch treat or what not. What I want is to help him overcome his awkwardness. XXXX, if you are reading this, I hope that you can give a thought of it. I mean, it’s already very long le and I dont want you to stay on the spot that you fell down a donkey time ago. You may think that I’m naive or what. But these are all my little wishes. I didnt host this party because of myself, but for people I feel that are in need. I want to make this party meaningful. God, you must help.

GC Reflections – We are Christ-Centred

Point 2 says “All that we are and all that we do is for Christ’s glory“. Are we doing things because of Christ? How do you react when people praise you, when people affirm you? Do you take the credit and boast around that you did well because you are good, you are cool? I think if we keep thinking this way, it makes us more prideful. Where is our humility? God doesnt create us to be prideful, to think bigger than God himself. If not, you can become god yourself! So, it’s important for us to stay humble. Accept the praises that people gave us and “transfer” to God as all these belongs to God, not us.

Practical point:  Stop, Think, Act! I think it’s a common trap for us to react a millisecond later when people praise you. But, what I want to encourage you is that when people start to praise you, STOP. Stop whatever you are doing, and THINK of what that person said. Rationalise it whether what the person said about you is true. If it is true, why is it true? What caused you to be this way? After you have sort out your thoughts, ACT accordingly. If it think all these is God’s work, Good! and praise Him and let people around you to be aware of it too!

Point 4 says “We want to be matured and aim to reach the fullness of Christ“. The subpoint b said  that “We need to teach our people to face trials with joy“. I think my leaders have been reminding me the thing about praising God. During happy times, we praise God, we thank God. But when we are sad, when things aint going our way, we stop praising God and we start to play the blame game. Are we able to praise God even in sad times, when we are facing difficulties? The four points in James 1:2-6 stuck in my head until now (okay.. at least the first 2 points). God brings us through tests and trials. God put us through a variety of trials. Perseverence must finish its work. Let God finish His process in your life. Spend time with God everyday, talking to Him. James Chapter 1 is about Trials and Temptations. That time when Junyao and LiPing asked me to read, I READ.. but nothing goes inside my head, I just block off everything. But when this passage was read again during GC, my heart was softened and listened to what God wants to tell me. The impact was really great. I thought I already overcome the “managing your emotions”. But when God tested me again, it once again proved that actually I have not overcome it. The whole MM saga incident is really a good lesson for me. I really agree that I’m really stupid lor.. to let this teeny weeny thing to stumble me. What will happen to me when big things come to my way? It’s glad that there’s someone to watch over my life. Cane me if I’m not doing well okay? or when I go emo-ING?