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C’est La Vie - This is Life (0 ♥comments)

Posted on Saturday, Jun 7 at 11:51 pm

Life is full of ups and downs. Life is just like a roller coaster which brings you the highest peak of your life; touching the rainbow; flying like an eagle. It can also make you drop to the bottom of the cliff; right down to the island-less sea, and you are trying to find a way to get out.

As my life changes, my emotions changed. These happy moments, these sad moments mould myself to be what I will be in the future. Only when I have the courage to overcome these many obstacles, I will become stronger.

But 3 months ago, I lost to the battle and flagged my white cloth. I supposed to be brave, and trust in God that He will give me a better path. He closes this door for me, and opens another one. I struggled between how people(the world) look at me and how God look at me. When I look at myself how people look at me, I really hated myself. In peoples’ eyes, I am not perfect. I’m just a nobody, a tiny ant in this world who is unimportant and non-influential to people around me. I’m very concerned on how people look at me, how they judge me, how they will talk about me. Praises and affirmations from them made my life. But when negative remarks were arrowed on me, dark clouds immediately form above my head.

Peoples’ comments to us are changeable. One point, they say good about us. One point, they say bad about us. How are we going to continue live and not to be affected on how people look at us? But, this is how the world goes. This world is so realistic. A single mistake you made, a word said wrongly, an action you’re not supposed to do, They Condemn Us.

I hate the life I’m having now. I am controlling myself from what I desire. Why should I give myself a bad time? I made my own life miserable. In a sudden, I found that I have no strengths but I have weaknesses.