Image by FayeMarcik. For the past few days, i’ve been 用泪洗脸. Wednesday..Thursday..and Today. I couldnt stop thinking of it. I already tried very hard to control the tears from flowing down. But, i cant. The more i think of it, the more i cried. Heading to classroom for lessons, i saw sherlynn, cuijun, shirley.. Recieved hugs and encouragement from them. I’m sorry shirley that i made you cry. I saw shirley’s blog:
i made her mood went downstream as well. when i exit class from irp to go for pe, hendra love saw me, and asked me, why i cry. i was shocked, and i saw her. i ran towards her, and ask her what happen. i saw her cry, i cannot take it, but cry along. we hugged and cry at the same time, with so many people walking past us and stare at us. =x we didnt care, but continue to hug, cry and say sorry to one another. =x jannah, yihong & sher came over to stop us from crying, and “chase” me to pe. =x i feel so bad for making her mood bad also. 
i’m just the emo me. =x
See? This is the strong effect of crying infront of my friends. Their mood get affected. I cant recall how many people walked past us. I didnt realise hendra saw me. Oh gosh.. i think alot of juniors saw me crying bah? The first lesson was maths, and i was late. When i went into the classroom, ms loke asked me if im ok. And i said “I’m STRONG!” but at that moment, i didnt mean what i said. When i saw James in the canteen, i controlled myself. When i saw Valerie and Meiling, i started to tear. When i saw Yvoone, i really couldnt take it. Once i hugged Yvoone, i started to cry again.
I’m sorry for friends who were around me. I didnt talked much to you guys. And sorry for not going lunching with you.
and also shirley.. dont blame yourself. You didnt affect my mood. It’s me who couldnt control myself..
Our cca participated in the SYF Central Judging Competition on 26 April. And I’m proud to announce that we got GOLD! We played two songs- Di Tanjong Katong and Dance Fantasy. To get the recording of the music, you can download it at:
After 4-5 months of practice, our hard work really paid off! Great hug to our conductor Ms Wee for arranging the two pieces, and made it a good one. Special thanks to teachers like Mr J, Ms Lim, Ms Tay, and Mr Ram(for speeding down to SCH to give us sth).Thanks to all who were involved in this year’s SYF. Thank you for your cooperation. You guys turned up for night practices, though returning back home from school was a long long journey. Thank you for people who wished us good luck, who prayed for us! We really did it!
On Wednesday(25 April)… the day we had our last SYF Practice..
had lunch with my darlings together. We had cam-whoring session. I mean, really cam-whore! took more than 63 photos. Really had fun together..I cant imagine the days without them.
our king kong junlong..
first cd album..
Before practice, i had my fringe cut by Edith. THANK YOU! CJ saw Edith’s “work” on me, and decided to have the fringe cut too! From Edith’s blog : “i think i did a gd job! *thanks gurls. i mean really thank euu la. thanks for trustin me lol”
And, we got our own shoe rack! Harmonis is now neater, with no shoes lying around.
Practice was okay. Everyone was excited for THE DAY. Mr j came in and encouraged us. He started to reminisce the good old days he had with us. Harmonis suddenly changed to an emo place. We had the cake from Secret Recipe after our practice. The same old chocolate and cheesecake that we bought for Ms Wee’s bday!
On the way back home, suddenly remembered that i have to buy something for my angklung section as an encouragement for them to do well in SYF. Stayed at NTUC for quite a long time, indecisive of what to buy for them. By the time i reached home, it was already 8pm. Had my dinner and straightened my fringe..All because of SYF.
THE DAY WE’VE BEEN WAITING FOR..(26 April)
When birds were still in their nest, waiting for heavy rain to stop..I reached school and only saw people like meiling, rommance, james and leong. Ya, who will reach school so early at 6:45am, except for us. While waiting for people to come, i went to the Harmonis storeroom and played piano. Sherlynn came and joined me. We played Canon in D together.
Around 715am, we had a mini combine together.Around 9 plus, we moved the instrument to the truck, changed to our costumes, make up. Dress nice nice ready for the SHOWTIME! We got this beautiful blue ribbon to tie on the hair, and got this earring(blue beads and silver hearts), standardised for all girls. Gave my section the sweets i’ve prepared. Although the gift is small, but like what shir said, its the thought that counts. Shir and Jannah got gift for their section and group respectively. Then, we had our group photo taking.
When we reached Singapore Conference Hall, saw some of the seniors..
Like my ex-sectional leader, Afidah. She messaged me that she wouldnt be coming as she’s sick. But, i saw her at SCH! This is how cunning and evil the seniors are =X Other seniors like Xiaoxuan, Huda, Dian, Yani.
Suddenly happened, and really spoilt my mood. The news was not supposed to pass down, but somehow everyone knew what happened. I’m not going to say who’s the culprit. The percussion sets werent transported to the truck. Important instruments were all in the school. Ms Wee’s baton too! Ms Wee came and made the last minute adjustment, fearing that the instruments couldnt reach on time. We supposed to have the “bird-call” using the porcelain bird, but we had to do it manually.. Man-made bird call..
Though i was affected by the bad news, i had to reassure my friends that it will be fine, will be ok. But yet, i couldnt convince myself. 4 minutes before our competition, the “bird-call” came. All thanks to Mr Ram, who came down from school to pass it to us. He’s our saviour. For once, i know that Mr Ram is good. For that, we were assured and got ready for the competition.
Before going into the backstage, i hugged everyone in my section, helping them adjust their costumes, their sleeves and collar. I’m like their mama. Take care of this and that. I dont know how leong touched my hand. Then he realised that i was feeling cold. He gave me his warmth, grabbing my hands and “transferring” the heat to me. Shirley also got the warmth from him. Then, It’s SHOWTIME!
We successfully played the 2 songs. But strangely, i wasnt feeling nervous. It was strange la. I thought it was a performance rather than competition. And i thought i was a weirdo. Until i found out with some of my friends, they felt that too! I’m not alone! 8 minutes in Harmonis was just like a long long period of time. But, the 8 minutes on SCH stage was fast like the light travels.
We waited for the results at the audience seat. The results were announced according to the sequence of appearance. our CCA was the last group to perform. So, we were the last group to know the results.
AK 29 …GOLD!!
Cam-whore again! A pact with shirley that we MUST take photos with each and every members in CCA! and i almost did it! I think out of 46 members, i took photos with at least 40 members?
If your names do not appear here, please approach me during I-Day performance. Will take photos with you.
asrida, nadiah, hendra, nilam, sher, james, yvonne, ben, tzekiat, cj, edith, yinwhee, jolene, minhui, sally, jannah, hafirah, leong, grace, ili, norla, valerie, chuting, ailing, yichuang, wani, maisarah, fathiah, hajar, fahmi, jerine, meiling, yongsheng, junlong, marilyn, muiwoon,shahida,tuankiak, yihong, shir
We came back school and unpacked everything, and had our debrief. We waited for our teachers to finish their lesson, before joining us for dinner at Al Ameen. So, we stayed at Harmonis. As it was a tiring day, some went home without waiting for dinner. I hugged my darling juniors, and encouraged them. But.. when i hugged mei wen, i couldnt control my tears. I started weeping.. Some juniors were affected by me, and started crying.. Sorry sorry.. i didnt mean it.
I’m just like a ONE-WAY water tap, that only knows how to turn on, not off.
And, Tzekiat and leong did it! They accomplished the “make-me-cry” duty. I couldnt stand them. The more they say, the more i cried. Sherlynn, yinwhee, yvoone, meiwen and many others comforted me. The more they consoled me, the more i cried. I will really miss them alot!!
We went Al ameen for dinner. Took alot of photos again. We wanted to order our food, but no one noticed us. Then, Sherlynn shouted “EXCUSE ME!” I mean.. really shout! It was so pai seh la. We left a great impression to the staff we “excuse me” to. Mr J joined us quite late. Some of them had their 2nd round while Mr J started his dinner. I was high-ed that moment. So, when people made their 2nd round order, i thank the staff saying alot of “thank yous” in different intonation. Wahaha. So fun..
I had Nasi Pattaya with CJ, Starfruit juice and Tissue Prata.
nasi pattaya..
We did a joke on Mr J. Shirley and I were making the payment for our tables. The total cost was $80+, but they only charged us for $75. So, we gave the change to Mr J saying that the drinks he ordered were on the house. The rest joined in this prank too!
When we left Al ameen, the staff that kena “shocked” by the “excuse me” bid good bye to you, and i heard from him..”Bye bye, excuse me” Ya..He’s referring to us! Hope he will still remember us the next time we come back.
..to SYF!
For the past few days, my cca peeps were so high about SYF and informing each other how many days to SYF. Whenever we see any cca friends, we will show the finger sign showing the number of days left. 3..2.. and tomorrow, it will be one.
Today is the 4th day after knowing the truth. I’m not blaming anyone for telling me the truth, cause 长痛不如短痛. At least i will not pin any more hopes but shift my focus to other things. It’s hard to adapt, but I WILL SURVIVE!
4 days ago(friday 20 april), i found out something, a secret that really affected my mood throughout the whole CCA practice. Sorry guys that i didnt have dinner with you all, and didnt tell you what happened. I think i will just hide this thing in the heart instead of saying out. Suddenly, it started to rain. Perhaps 心情不好,所以希望雨水能冲走一切不愉快的事. Went out for a short walk in the rain. But luckily wasnt sick. Shirley accompanied me, and she’s sick now. During night practice, we changed to our costume and shifted our instruments to the hall to practice the walking in and out. The Floorball people were in the hall having their friendly match. But, we managed to “chase” them out of the hall..heak heak heak.. After practice, ben told the yr2s about yr3s stepping down on the SYF day (26 april) itself and the new cca positions for the yr2s to choose. At the time ben said this, tears slowly formed. But i told myself, not to cry.. not to cry.. After practice, tuan kiak told me about taking a yr3s group photo together for the yr3s. I totally broke down. I cried infront of tuankiak. No matter how he confronted me, it didnt make a difference. Shirley came and lent me her shoulder. I’m started to be emo.
You may feel strange or puzzled, why i’m so emotional about such things. But, CCA is just like my 2nd family. Where all the family members care for each other, always be there for each other whenever i need help. I have alot of friends there.. Shirley, sherlynn, edith, sera, cuijun, yichuang, ben, yihong, tuan kiak, junlong.. and many many more.. I can say that CCA friends are much closer as compare to classmates. Although we have practice only for 2 times per week, but everyone is always available for each other for 24-7. Alot of 不舍得s. And soon, i have to pass down my role as angklung sectional leader. Seeing my section improves day by day.. From nothing to something. The effort that ive put in.. And soon, i have to say good bye.
I finally settled down my feelings after the hug from shirley. Then, tze kiat and leong talked and consoled me that this is just part and parcel of life. Again, i cried. They were desperate, and kept telling me to cool down.
[23 April, Monday]
3 more days to SYF…
In the morning, went to harmonis for practice. We had a mini combine before heading to the hall for assembly. During assembly, i saw tze kiat and leong again. They talked to me about “3 more days to stepping down” instead of “3 more days to SYF”. I started to cry again. The water tap just worked on its own. And suddenly i heard “sekolah..sediya”. Gosh, I’m soo not prepared. In the afternoon, i saw two of them AGAIN. i kept seeing them these few days, i dont know why. They were trying their best to make me cry again. Saying about the Farewell thing, and sad things, hoping that i would just break down and cry. But, I DIDNT! Perhaps at that moment, ive already immuned to their talks. No matter how sad they described, i didnt let a drop of tear coming down. I’m STRONG! and i MUST BE STRONG.
at night, received sms from brother chuan. He saw me crying during assembly. oh gosh, so embarassing. But, chuan, thanks for ur concern! I will jia u de!
[24 April, Tuesday]
2 more days to SYF..
Again, fingers kept sticking out showing the “2″. Yaya.. i know, it’s 2 more days to SYF! Today is a much better day for me. At least i didnt cry.. Overall, lessons were okay for me. During GP lesson, Mr Tan played a video clip for us. The images in the video impacted me. Reflects how fortunate i am. I like one of the sentences “understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few, you should hold on. work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young“. Good friends are hard to find. They are just like shooting stars, rare.
After school, daddy mummy came. we went to have ice-cream at mcdonald. and came back home and started on my designing. I dont think i have the mood to study now. Super excited about SYF! Woohoo! I’ve made new changes to the blog template. And in the midst of forming the main page. Please bear with me.
Just now, i was chatting with tze kiat..he’s so bad la, wanna make me cry on thursday. I think leong will join him in the “make-me-cry” move too.
anyway, tml is a happy day, i guess. Cam-whoring starts tml! I will take alot alot alot of pictures with my darlings.. It will be the 2nd last time to take photos with them!
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