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Venting my anger

Posted on Wednesday, Mar 21 at 10:03 pm

Filed under Emo Queen

CAUTION: if you are feeling happy and great, please dont read this entry. It will spoil your mood.

Ask me, am i angry? I will say yes. Ask me, am i furious? I will say yes.

I dont think today is my day. Alot of unpleasant events happened today, that really made me very very angry and displeased. Early in the morning, two guys already ”made-my-day” me. Thanks for starting my day in this horrible way. Who were they? my supposedly Sunshines. When i reached school, i saw the two of them at the canteen making their way up to the classroom to take their bags for assembly. So, i told them that i will be waiting for them outside the hall.

I waited.. waited.. and waited..

Everyone was making their way to the hall.. i was standing outside the hall..and waited for them like an idiot. It’s impossible for them to take such a long time to get their bags and come up to the hall right? Dont tell me that the distance from the canteen to the classroom is as long as from Jurong to Changi? And guessed how long they took to come to the hall? 10 minutes. Or.. i should not blame them. Perhaps they were ROBBED on their way there. SINCE they KNOW that i’m waiting for them, cant they just make their way down faster and meet me? And guessed what i heard? They were practically taking a nice, romantic stroll up to the classroom (like looking at the beautiful scenery of the Botanical Garden, chit-chatting)

This was not the first time waiting for them. I mean.. one of them. Guess who? Obviously is that one la.

On monday, this person made me and tanxiao wait for him outside the school, at the bus stop. We wanted to buy birthday present for emily. So, we called him if he want to join us. So, he agreed and told us to wait for him. “I will be there soon”

After 5 minutes.. we called him..

“oo.. sorry.. i’m in the general office”

Then, some of our classmates came out, and we asked them where was he.

“he’s at the stadium”

After sometime, second batch of people came out and we asked the same question.

“oo.. he ar.. he is in the classroom”

Halo..we are waiting for you..Can you come out faster? If you cant make it, it’s fine! It’s not that you have no handphone to contact us? You can tell us to go ahead first right?

So, tx, tk and me went without him. (very obvious who is the “he”, right?)

Let’s forget about the “SUNSHINE GANG” la.. afterall we are not very close friend and as important to one another, right? There are many more wonderful things as compared to sunshines right?

*the thought of dismissing the gang*

Just as i thought i can feel better during the CCA Open House.. I WAS WRONG!

Very unpleasant thing happened. I couldnt tolerate it, and i can feel that at any moment, i will be splitted into half. I will go crazy.. I will break down..

Many members saw my black face. They can even see the huge flame of fire on my head. Uncontrollable rage inflamed my face. Many tried to calm me, by talking to me, asking me whether i alright? I think next time, they should try not to ask this question. Just pass me a fire extinguisher will do.

So, i already prepared to scold the members, and made them stayed back after practice. But, the moment i gathered them together.. the moment i sit on top of the table and stare at them.. the moment i see their faces.. all my anger gone.

Is like i am supposed to scold them.. but, in the end, i just advised them and talked to them.. and a scolding session turned out to be an evaluation session for them to reflect what they did.

I’m such a loser..I do not have the courage to scold them. turning scolding session to evaluation and reflection session.

I’ve never been so angry before. And now, this is how i end my 21 March 2007. Did 3 maths questions and thats it.

anyway, talking about my cca. I already have an idea what souvenier to give back to cca. I’m intending to compose a song. Really! i already have a rough idea how the music will go. So, hope i can finish it, before i step down. Hope i can really finish composing the piece of music.

by the way, i added a song to my blog. My Chemical Romance. Cause i dont think i will like to listen those sentimental, slow and nice songs. Doesnt flow with my feelings. Now, i need real ROCK, NOISY, ALOT OF SHOUTINGS..ARGHX….