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[9 Mar 07, Friday] 

Friday, we had our PU3 seminar talk by Adam Khoo Learning Group. Our speaker was Gary. He was quite humorous; a good speaker who really gets our attention. Aspire to become like him. Speak confidently in front of everybody. So.. where should i start..? how should i do..?

Halfway the seminar, went to perform for the Japan students. They came to our school for some exchange. That was our first time performing our 2 SYF pieces. Of course, there is still room for improvement.. It’s still a long long way to get GOLD WITH HONOURS! Frankly speaking, i was nervous, worried that i will mess up the solo part. But luckily, i managed to calm myself down and just play.

After that, went back for the talk. It was so embarassing to walk back into the room with so many eyes staring at you. Then, we continued to get some motivation talks by Gary. 

Went back home, and bought my 2nd box of durian puff of the week. Within that one day, i managed to eat everything! I’m crazy, yeah i know. So, I promise.. I wont eat durian puff anymore..

But, i will eat durian instead!

[10 Mar 07]

Shirley bought Mac breakfast for me. Because of that, i slowly crawled up from my bed and get to school. But, in the end, i was late for breakfast. Reached around 850am, when im supposed to do duty at 830am. But, the CCA room wasnt opened at that time. So, i gobbled the burger down and started to do duty as soon as possible.

Practice supposed to start at 9am. People then started strolling in around 930am. That pissed Ms Wee off. This was the first time i saw Ms Wee that ANGRY! All thanks to “responsible” members who lack the sense of urgency that SYF IS COMING AND WE LEFT ONLY LESS THAT 15 PRACTICE? We never get full attendance before. Members have other commitments everywhere. Why cant they just be committed to CCA and strive the best for our SYF? CCA is not a playground for them to mess around..CCA is not a hotel for you to book in and out whenever you FEEL LIKE IT. Su kar su kar come. Tired then dont come. Come on la, what is this? Since people are always not around, Ms Wee decided to have night practices instead. I dont mind to have night practice, as long as people come for practice.

All thanks to those absentees, i decided to have sectional for the next practice on wednesday. While the rest will come at 1pm for practice, i shall make all the angklung players come back at 12pm to start their practice. And, we shall see how’s the attendance. It’s time for me to be mean. Really cant give way. Was chatting with my ex-sectional leader about the attendance problem. She never had such problems with us(the current yr3 batch), bcause at that time, everyone was committed.. Then, what about NOW?

from shir’s blog

COME ON CCA! we can do this alright? like what yinwhee say. we need to make CCA-ians willing and want to come for practices. we cant let this continue. competition is coming. we need to get down to real hard core practices. to get what we want and desire. we need to do it right. COME ON PEOPLE. we can do it! we’re the best right? WE CAN; WE WILL. ALL THE WAY cca. i believe in us. i believe we can do it. please. put in the same love and energy as many of us have already put in. all that we put in will reap what we want. LET’s WORK TOWARDS OUR COMMON GOAL. WE WILL & WE ARE GOING TO BRING BACK WHAT WE WANT.

After CCA practice, my two sunshines-jl and tk, with yi chuang went JP for lunch while waiting for sunshine emily and sunshine tx. Then, went NTU open house. Got back some useful informations. Went to the Creative and Media Design. Quite interested. So many courses in mind, i dont know which to focus.

After NTU open house, went NUS open House. Took the shuttle bus at Dover. saw miah bro!! We reached NUS, and seated for the faculty talk. Didnt have chance to find sister calyn. Went for the exhibition hall. Took brochures. Then, i walked past this booth “Computing”, and i asked yi chuang “a.. what’s that ar?” Guess my voice too loud le. one of the students came forward and chatted with me. Thou he was being helpful, but i really cant understand his talking. His accent. =X

*blue balloons* 

After NUS Open House, went to IT fair. tk sunshine went home early. Before that, We had dinner at Marina Square- a place i lost my way. Then went IT Fair. Bought my Zen Neeon 2! Happy!! my mum decided to sponsor me $100 dollar after teh-ing with her. I feel so ‘not-like-me’ to teh my mum. So rou ma! Then, my dad called and he said he sponsoring me another $100. So, i will have to pay $39 for my mp3.

But, something happened..today on 11 march. I dont know if i will be able to get my sponsorship. Cause i did something. It’s about religion and stuff. I thought it’s somehow sensitive, so i shall not talk too much about it. But, when i was talking about Christianity, explain christianity to my parents, i felt like crying. Tears started to BURST out, and i couldnt control myself. I forced a strong smile infront of my parents and went back to my room and cried. For close friends who know me, i dont really like to cry infront of my parents. Watching sad movies or tv shows, i will “suck” back all the tears. In my mum’s eyes, im cold-blooded..with no feelings. which is NOT! but, let it be bah.

i wish i can faster get out of this situation. Hope my parents can be more understanding.

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Yesterday, received sms from him, asking me to go out with him. watch movie. i already anticipate a kind of insecurity and awkwardness if i really go out with him. So, rejected him. i know it’s bad to reject people. but, since i’ve made a decision to stay a distance from him, i will not cross over the fine line. I shall be myself..